Time.....need more, want more, crave more

Time.....an interesting concept

Winks, who is 5 years old, has zero, ziltch, nada, no sense of time at all.

"Why does 5 minutes take so long mommy", is said when he is in the time-out chair.
"5 minutes until bedtime"................"Oh no mommy that's not enough time!"
No conceptual sense of time at all!!

The Bug, who is 3 years old, is so laid back that even when she does get a clue she'll probably always be late.

Ceito, who is 37, is always at least 15 minutes early for everything. He's like the little ol' man that you see down at the coffee shop at 5:30am. Reading the paper, drinking coffee, eating a cream stick, with no where else to go all day long. The guy leaves the house at 6am to drive the 8 miles to school where he doesn't have to be there until 7am! What is that all about??? He says he likes to be there when no one else is, read the paper, take his time. Sounds great! Sit and wait........yuck!

Then, there is me.......I'm 35 by the way......and I just can't ever be consistent! It feels good sometimes to be really early and sit there and not feel stressed about being late. But, I'm just not made to sit and wait. I don't like it. Cannot tolerate it. Really despise it.

Sit, sit, sit, wait, wait, wait...............

Hummm. Wonder when the others will get here.

Hummm, wish I had a sudoku right now.

Hummm, ....the hills are alive with the sound of music...........

Hummm, I really should not sing.....it sounds really bad....

wow....look at the peeling paint on the wall...........and those pictures that are not symmetrical.....how do people live like this?.........come on, come on, come on, let's go people, we're burning daylight...................COME ON ALREADY!

Yeah, I don't like to sit and wait. Besides the fact that I really don't have time for much waiting, I don't have time for getting anywhere early enough to be waiting for long! So my sanity remains intact......questionable, but intact!!!

So it goes. As a kid, no concept, then don't care, then as a teenager get really bored becasue we have nothing to do and tons of time so you do stupid stuff to fill in time (wow, that brings back memories), then young adults, still have tons of time, still do stupid stuff to fill it in, then late 20's start to crave a family to fill up your time 'cause you've got so much extra....right? Then you get the family and kids and you fill up every second with love and comfort and running here and there until you are exhausted, then those little ones grow and go away and you've got tons of time again for........nothing?

Seems like we should be able to borrow against time don't ya think?

There does not seem to be enough time in my life right now. I will theorize though that even if I had more time I would still want more. At what point in my life will there be enough time? Introspection is valuable. I've been thinking a lot about time lately. I crave it, but come to find out I haven't been using it wisely.

I work with a lot of elderly patients in nursing homes. These folks seem like they've got the market cornered on time. I feel terrible sometimes about the fact that they are alone, lonely and depressed because they don't have things to fill up their time. It's sad really, because a visit from anyone really brightens their day. Do the people sitting there wanting company crave more time? The people who could be visiting are filling their time with other "things".

It comes down to prioritizing. I've come to learn in my few short years of awake maturity (I call it awake maturity because it seems that I should have reached maturity much sooner than I did....too much filling my time with stupidity when I was younger).....anyway.....I've come to learn that prioritizing is time consuming, but the dividends are rich. I've not been prioritizing well lately.

I believe that we all need focus in our lives. For me this starts with focus on my faith in Jesus Christ. How can time be filled any more wisely than with discussions with your Father? I've been praying about time lately......how's this gonna fit into my time, God? how's this gonna impact my time, God? These discussions have led to being told that it's all God's time.....not mine! He has given us time to use. We don't know how much we have left, we only know what we have used.........an open-ended bank account of time. His desire is that we use it in such a way that glorifies Him, enriches our relationship with Him. This is tough! Prioritize to glorify God, and not yourself. Wow, we're just not made that way. Hummm. Don't bury this given time with garbage on top of it...............use it, and it multiplies.......the dividends are rich and overflowing.

With that said, I feel that my cravings for more time are due in part to my lack of adequate prioritizing. Things just fall into place when you really think about the root of the problem. I'm blessed with a good mind, sometimes I just don't use it!!!

So, that's where crazymama is right now. I'm prioritizing.............glorify Him, not me!

So.............got good news on the MRI................no stress fracture!!! Yeah!! Lots of tendon inflammation, but no bony changes. I'm super happy about that. What I'm not happy about is that ol' kissy poo sent me to Physical Therapy. hummmph, I can do this on my own, can't I?? Apparently not! It is hard to watch yourself run and do any type of gait assessment on yourself. So, I get it, I get it, go see your friend and have him berate you about how inflexible you are, how goofy your running gait looks, and how bad of a patient you are......okay, okay, I'll go!! So I went. And, his receptionist thought I was crazy for coming to P.T., and I sounded stupid in front of him..........because as every therapist who is also an athlete knows; when a therapist gets injured they get dumb! Yep, down right lost your mind, no point in trying to make any sense, should have never spent hundereds of thousands of dollars of your parents hard earned cash on higher education, stupid! Even Dr. Kissy Poo looked at me and said...... "now tell me straight up what you would say to your patient who was coming to you with their foot all outta wack?" "well, first I would look at their shoes; check wear patterns, check insole presentation, check stability in the mid and forefoot; then take a look at the patient's strength in both lower extremities from the hip down; then check flexibilty; then set up a revised (lower mileage) training schedule after any temporary orthotic issues are addressed." "goof ball.............what is your problem..........you've gotten dumb, just because it's your foot doesn't mean you have to pretend you don't know what you are doing"!!! "Go to P.T., I'm done with you" "Fine, don't send me any bills either!" That one went over really well!!! I saw him at a function at school last night, and he handed me his bill. See if I ever kiss him again!!!! So P.T. was humiliating. They made fun of me and belittled me, then put stuff in my shoes. I'm walking and running on speed bumps now. No fun, but no pain so far!! 7 miles tomorrow, which is goofy since I did 10 last week. But I'm sticking to the program. Feeling good. Ate pancakes this morning without guilt...........yet!

I'm still here

Just a little blurp to let you know that I'm still here! I've slacked on writing due to increased work at the end of my busy semester. Only 2 more weeks left on this whirlwind tour!!! On a training note...............I had an MRI done last week. Results tomorrow when I see good ol' kissy-poo again. I ran 10 miles on Saturday. First few miles were pretty good. Around our second loop, I started feeling pretty cruddy in the foot area. Miles 8, 9, 10 were pretty challenging. I'm glad it's over....mentally and physically. Yeah, my first double digit run under my belt!! Foot felt okay after the run, so I still have no educated guesses what's going on. It does feel better since switching out of my Saucony's. But, still point tender and achy. I'll let ya know!!! Hang tight for now, I'll catch up later!!